sweetintoxication436

YOU CALL ME A BITCH LIKE ITS A BAD THING~~!!!!!`

YOU CALL ME A BITCH LIKE ITS A BAD THING~~!!!!!`

i carve your name into my skin with such care,
like the penmanship of my razor,
has to match the amount of perfection,
i see in your eyes.

i look around,
and all i see is beauty,
in everything,
in everyone,
in every insecure girl or boy,
in every cut on a wrist,
i see beauty in everything,
except me.

i may be a hypocrite,
but when i look in the mirror,
all i see is a beaten down failure,
someone whose heart has been crushed,
too many times,
that she starts to question if she even has one,
someone who does everything she can,
to be perfect,
yet hurts everything around her,
someone who tries to be everything she's not

i see a tough girl,
made of steel,
but when she is alone,
she is anything but,
i see a smart girl,
has everything going for her,
but when she is hurt,
she loses her common sense,
i see a pretty girl,
who knows just what to do,
but when blinded by insecurity,
learns to believe she is ugly.

so when you see that,
tough,
smart,
pretty girl,
tell her that you are there for her,
and she will smile and wave,
act like its nothing,
but in reality,
you just saved her life.

She feels black around her,
seeing crimson drip down her leg.
The silver falls from her fingers,
Saltwater overwhelms her sight.

Her limbs go numb,
and they fall to the floor.
Grey washes over her mind,
and she starts choking on her mistakes.

blue circles surround her,
she feels her dark soul lifting.
This is all she ever wanted,
red lines trim her body.

Her dim sight of yellow wavers,
she hears panic and feels pressure.
There is none of her left,
she is gone, saved.